Seventy-One

It’s been seventy-one days since graduation. My how the time has passed all too quickly, yet not quick enough. I feel as though I’ve already grown into a much stronger person. I’ve had life changing hardships and I’ve had the most amazing times of my life all in those seventy-one days and nights. I know I have so much farther to go, but for now, I think I’ve made a decent start. I use to think that work was all I needed, but I see it’s so much more than that. I have so many responsibilities that people don’t think of day to day. They seem petty so no one considers them important, but I feel the things we see as most petty, are the ones that deserve the most attention. I’m still young, nearly nineteen years is all. Though I have no intentions of living past fifty, I still have many years to make mistakes and miracles. Who knows how long the world will be here and the best thing to do while it’s still here- is to make the best of it. So many things can change in a year, a month, a day, an hour, sixty seconds. We don’t have the time to sit back and sulk in our inner depression. Though it may always be there, we have to push through the pain and find the thing or things to give us the kick start to our future. Time truly does fly. You can sit there and think, I’m only sixteen or eighteen or twenty-one, but look back and think about everything you've done. Everything you've seen. Everything you've pushed through. It’s really not that long of a time. For me, it took one of the most terrifying things to get my life turned around. I was dead for a week, but slowly but surely, I’m realizing a lot of things and even though I am still depressed inside, I found the light that was barely flickering red at the bottom of my soul. It was still there. Buried under hurt and disbelief, it was still there. I am still amazed at this. All those years I was convinced it was gone. But like the Bible says, God never gives up on us.